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Friday, July 31, 2009

just shoot a bullet through my head


Thursday, July 30, 2009

Cheer up kays, syaffy.

You're not alone.

I'll be here for you.

But I'm sorry if I ignored you this morning.

I came at 7.20 plus.

Sorry okay.

Yulikha and me are here for you.
What you said was not true, we care for you and you have us.
ilyvm.

And i hope both of you will patch things up okay.

aisyah sayang awak(:


Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Lepak today was great.
Lepak-ed with Syaffy, Yulikha and Kakak.
Hahs.
Won't elaborate.
loves(:



-Point it to your head and pull the trigger*


Monday, July 27, 2009

You've reopened the wounds that I've sealed and it won't stop bleeding.


Sunday, July 26, 2009

I wanna move.
I wanna migrate.
Parents are thinking of migrating to Australia or
Dubai.
I wish it would really happen.



do not highlight



MFR, don't you know how much i miss you?



many moons have come and gone
yet i'm still waiting.
how i wish that i had never known you
cause i want to escape from this misery.....


This may sound crazy and stuff but
I WANT TO GO TO 'THE CLINIC'.
Yeah, I know. I can't go cause I'm under age and It's a club.
I'm going crazy every minute.
I don't know what is going to happen to me.
Pfft.

Okay, I'm off.
loves(:
xoxo





i love Thomas Argeneau to the max.♥♥♥♥


Monday, July 20, 2009

School was a blast!
Kelakar giler dok.
Especially during maths test(:
Mr Sufyan was so EVURL.

My letter dropped out of my wallet and I didn't realise it.
And during the test he saw it and picked it up.
I saw him picking something up and didn't know that it was the letter from JULIANA(L).
And then Fareesa started to call my name so I looked at her and she was ponting to the notice board.
And the letter was pinned up there.
THAT TEACHER IS EVIL.
After the test I took it and kept it.
LOLS.
I shall skip to after school.
Had chicken porridge for lunch.
At in school.
After finish eating, Faizal came(:
Then clique plus fareesa talked and talked with him.
Then SAMUEL came.
That fucking asshole.
You think you older than me I scared issit?
Sorry sikit eh.
You think you talk hokkien I care issit?
Come ah. I talk greek with you.
KAU TAK AKAN PAHAM NYER.
Kanina.
Ante ya misu.
Stinkalavita.
Get a fucking life okay.
And you say you don't fight with sec ones.
AND WELL YOU DID.
ASSHOLE!
Kk.
I'm done cursing him(:
And then we went off to meet the guys.
Slacked till four then Trishh, Syaffy and me went off.
Trishh went to another direction.
So Syaff and me went to buy WAFFLES and SOYA BEAN.
And sat at the walkway(:
Talked to Syaff.
She rocks luhh kayh.
Aisyah Sayang Syafiqah(:
Then I went home.
And then showered and stuff and now I'm here(:

Currently chatting with COUSIN DEAR(L).
Look at the conv below.
HAHA.
WAFFLES(:




You see how crazy she is about WAFFLES(:
Okaes.
Want to do homework but I'm feeling so the lazy luhh.
I shall listen to music and try to do homework aye.
toodles.
Loves(:


Sunday, July 19, 2009

Madrasah was fun.
Laughed a lot.
Payed attention in class during Sirah only.
Sirah rocks eh.
Every week during Sirah lesson ustazah make the class laugh(:
FARADINA LOVES WAFFLES.
Cousinku sayang waffles.
Sedap kan waffles.
HAHAHA.
*winks*
That cousin of mine rocks.
After madrasah ended and stuff took 31 to Tampines interchange.
Then went to take the MRT to Pasir Ris.
Reached Pasir Ris and went to WS to buy nail polish remover and clips at ARIES.
Then took 3 home.
Reached home and watched The City at MTV.
Then ordered Canadian Pizza.
Ate Sheperd's Pie, Meat Lover and Hawaian(i think)
Then used laptop and went to Facebook.
Went to Peiling's profile and saw the pics that Phoebe drew.
It was zsuper cute.
She drew us according to our jersey numbers.
Cute luhh eyh.
Haha.
Greg's hair looked like a mountain.
Ashraff's hands were short and cute.
His hair was centre parting.
LOL lah kan.
I LOVE PHOEBE(:
Haha.
I want to paint my nails again.
But can't cos there's school tomorrow and parents will be home tonight.
Pfft.
Changed blogskin.
I like it(:
Anyways, doing F&N and Melayu now(:
Hardworking right.
Haha.
Okay.
Need tuhh complete homework.
toodles(:
loves!


Sweet memories
Saturday, July 18, 2009


Singapore Under 12 Hockey Girls at Sydney(:

Singapore Under 12 Hockey Boys at Canberra(:
Singapore Under 12 Hockey Girls at Canberrea(:


Its been nearly a year since I've met them.
Don't you know how much I miss them?
They rock, yeah.
I miss Papa J and Mummy Emily too(:
But everytime there will be a meet up I can't go.
The only time I can meet them is during floorball tourneys.
Some of the girls only.
Sad huh.


Alrighty, I'm off.
loves(:



Read my previous posts and it all sounded dead.
Time for a change yeah.



I WANT TO CHANGE MY BLOGSKIN.
But i'm too lazy to search for it.
Hehs.



Mom, Dad and brother will be away for three days(:
From friday night to sunday night i guess.
Home alone with sisters.
Gerek, yo.
Nail polished our nails.
Haha.
I used WHITE, SILVER and PALE PINK.
Nice you know.
LOLS.
Stuff was great on Friday.
Felt much better.
Thanks to those people.
Love you people.
Kk.
Anyways, I don't feel like doing my homework.
Pfft.
I've updated.
Everyone is happy.
So, I'm off.
Loves(:


Thursday, July 16, 2009

He saw what happened just now.
I got home and went online, he was online too.
He asked me if I was alright,
I did not answer.
He asked me why I cried,
I said it was nothing.
He asked what happened,
I just said that he does not need to know.
He begged me to tell,
but I refused.
At last he gave up and went offline.
And then I felt like i'm the worst person on earth.
After hurting him so much for the past few months, he still cares.
I'm the most heartless person on earth.
He cared, and all I did was to hurt him.
I feel so bad.
I'm sorry.



Sorry you guys for what happened just now.
I was being so sensitive and irrational.
I let my feelings control me.
It was just too painful to hear.
I had to let the tears flow after what Nafis said.
That was the last thing that I wanted to hear from anyone. Especially today.
I took in everything people said about the _ _th for the past week.
I'm sorry yeah you guys.



Today after school, the gays cheered my up.
Yups. NICHOLAS, NIGEL WONG, WYBERT and SEAN.
Thanks yeah you guys.
And don't forget clique and fareesa.
hees.
And ALIFF joined us.
That penyebok. HAHAHA.
Tklah eh.
So much stuff happened and luckily today we did not have to run away from the police(:
WAHAHA. that makcik go call police yesterday and had to run away from them. Pfft.
Stayed for an hour or so and then me and syaffy went of first.
We went to the drink stall at central and syaf bought BANDUNG.
Sedaaap.
Then, we went to the walkway at syaf's block and sat down there.
So kesian right.
We sat on the floor when the tabkes and chairs were EMPTY(:
Best lah eyh.
We talk talk and she made me laugh. AS USUAL.
Then stayed for half an hour so and then went home.
And now i'm here at home with kakak.
(: (:
Kk.
Dah update and i'm happy.
So, HUGS AND KISSES (!)
toodles(:


Saturday, July 11, 2009

I've had enough of everything.
If only everything would end.
If only I can live in my own space where I can find peace and cry to myself.
I tried to be strong, I endured all the pain.
But then, yesterday, I couldn't endure any longer.
My heart was in a lot of pain, I let the tears roll down my cheeks and I cried to sleep hoping that everything will get better and everything will change.



Dedications.



to Syafiqah Mahirah.
I've let you down many times.
I've broken my promise to you many times.
I'm sorry for everything.
ilyvm.
Thank you for giving me advices and giving me your listening ear and listening to my craps.
Everytime I feel that my life's starting to crumble down, you will always tell me that there is a future waiting for me out there and you will always never fail to make me laugh when we walk home together.
Thank you for being there when I needed you.
I love you very much.

to Yulikha.
You are the best, aye.
You always make me laugh and scream when you show me the books.
Thank you for everything.
ilyvm.

to Tricia.
You are the silliest and sadistic person I've ever met.
You never fail to injure yourself at the playground and always make my stomach burst because of laughing.
Thank you for being my retarded partner. HAHA.
ilyvm.

to Ke Xin.
That rock ass minah.
Always making me laugh with her same jokes.
Mr mochick eh.
Aisyah love you very much kay.

Aisyah love you people to bits. Aisyah love clique.
I can't survive without you guys. Muacks!
loves.
Aisyah.


Wednesday, July 8, 2009

THE WEIRDEST AND CREEPIEST ACOUSTIC VERSION OF A SONG I HAVE EVER SEEN. HAHA.


Daughtry's acoustic version. I LOVE THIS ONE. Not creepy as Gaga's. HAHA.

Enjoy ehh.



Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Mr Sufyan rocks, HAHA.
I ain't kidding.
He can be an ASS and BUSYBODY at times but he rocks luhh.
Clique talked to him banyak-banyak in the physics lab after helping with the posters after school.
Fun ehh korang.
HAHA.
But he left me thinking about what he said.
And I still am thinking about it.
He made sense and a good point.
Dahh kk.
Later he read my blog then KEMBANG.
He told us he reads our blogs.
HAHA.
I shall not make him KEMBANG.
Cikgu ni ada perasaan sikit.



Kk. Enough about MR SUFYAN ehh.
Walked home with TRISHH and SYAFFY.
Alamak, there is this sudden feeling of lazyness(sp?).
Dah k wtvs.
I'm off.
loves.



"Sebagai Orang Islam...."
Hahaha. Syaff ingat phrase tu tauu. (:


Friday, July 3, 2009

Today was pretty fun, yeah.
Came to class, put bag down and join the rest.
And... YULIKHA MADE ME SCREAM.
Haha.
But yulikha, my kakak say its just a rumour.
HAHA.
I shall skip to after school.
IT WAS GEREK LAHH.
Met up with the boys at the usual tempat.
Slacked there. And then me and syaffy went to E!Hub to hantar FAREESA ELDA to meet up with her ABANG AZIM to watch movie. (happy belated birthday, yeah azim.)
Reached E!Hub, we took the escalator to the cinema floor and then said bye to fareesa then me and syaffy went down the escalator. Syaffy was kicking me luhh.
And guess who was there, going uo the escalator...
HAZIQ, NURUDDIN and this other guy which his name starts with the letter R i think.
Anyway, he was like, JANGAN MAIN KAT ESCALATOR LAHH.
Then, i turned and was, EH, BUDAK NI!!
Then he was like, _ _ _ MANA?
Then, I showed him the middle finger.
WAHAHAHA.
Then, me and syaffy went to CENTRAL and she went to go and buy BUBBLE TEA.
She asked the auntie for mango but she gave syaffy green apple. -_-
HAHA.
Then we lepaked under syaffy's block. And we talked.
I told her stuff that I had never told anyone.
Syaff jangan bilang sape-sape ehh.
Then reached home at four forty-five. i think.
Nothing much happened at home.
:D



I shall end this post with a quote.

there's something called a future, waiting out there begging you not to end it.




Thursday, July 2, 2009

Nabilah tagged me to do this.

GUILTY OR INNOCENT:
RULE 1. You can only say Guilty or Innocent.
RULE 2. You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!(So people reading this, if you want an explanation.. comment.)Now, here's what you're supposed to do... And please do not spoil the fun. Delete my answers, type in your answers and tag 20 of your friends to answer this. Then see what happens.

Asked someone to marry you?

Innocent

Kissed one of your Facebook friend?
Innocent

Danced on a table in a bar?
Innocent

Ever told a lie?
Guilty

Had feelings for someone whom you can't have?
Guilty

Ever kissed someone of the same sex?
Guilty

Kissed a picture?
Guilty

Slept in until 5 PM?
Guilty

Fallen asleep at work/school?
Guilty

Held a snake?
Innocent

Been suspended from school?
Innocent


Worked at a fast food restaurant?
Innocent

Stolen from a store?
Innocent

Been fired from a job?
Innocent

Done something you regret?
Guilty

Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?
Innocent

Caught a snowflake on your tongue?
Innocent

Kissed in the rain?
Innocent

Sat on a roof top?
Guilty

Kissed someone you shouldn't?
Innocent

Sang in the shower?
Guilty

Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
Innocent

Shaved your head?
Innocent

Slept naked?
Innocent

Had a boxing membership?
Innocent

Made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
Guilty

Been in a band?
Innocent

Shot a gun?
Guilty

Donated Blood?
Innocent

Eaten alligator meat?
Innocent

Eaten cheesecake?
Guilty

Still love someone you shouldn't?
Guilty

Have/had a tattoo?
Innocent

Liked someone, but will never tell who?
Guilty

Been too honest?
Guilty

Ruined a surprise?
Guilty

Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you cant walk after wards?
Guilty

Erased someone in your friends list?
Guilty

Dressed in a woman's clothes (if your a guy) or man's clothes (if your a girl)?
Guilty

Joined a pageant?
Innocent

Been told that you're handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said?
Guilty

Had communication with your ex?
Guilty

DATING Someone?
Innocent

Get totally drunk one night and you have an important exam tomorrow morning?
Innocent

A total stranger treat you by paying your jeepney/tricycle fare?
Innocent

Get totally angry that you cried so hard?
Guilty

Tag 20 people.
- Syaffy
- Trishh
- Yulikha
- Adila
- Fiqqah
- Jurah
- Havoc
- Sach
- Alyaa
- Anyone kay



1) What's the colour of your room? Light Pink.

2) What's your actual height? 163? 164?

3) If you're told to get married quick, what would you do?
DUDE, I'M ONLY THIRTEEN.

4) If your boyfriend said "Let's breakup", what's your reaction?
Ask him why and breakdown.

5) If your brother was in jail, what will you do?
Bail him out.

6) If your boyfriend/girlfriend ended up in hospital and in a coma, what will you do?
Cry and pray that they will survive.

7) If you saw someone stripless, what's your first reaction?
Is that what I think it is??? HAHA. I would give them the :0 look.

8) The last person you chatted with?
On the phone with Syaffy♥.

9) Who was the last person that texted you and what?
Fiqqah♥ asking for someone's phone number.

10) What's on your playlist now?
It's a very long list. I dont bother typing it.

11) The last thing you ever bought at a shop? Mee Goreng

12) What's the most silly thing your boyfriend/girlfriend last did?
Accidentally putting her hand in a hot pan.

13) Its white & sticky, what is it ?
GLUE!!

14) A romantic dream you would like to happen to you?
Yeahh.

15) Give 10 people that you wish to do this survey.
Nabilah. Maryam. Alyaa. Fiqqah. Adila. Jurah. Havoc. Arabel. Janice. 6E 2008

16) Right now, what you wish would happen to you?
That JULY would be over and I can hopefully get out of this MISERY.

17) If you caught your boyfriend/girlfriend red handed having an affair, what will you do?
Demand for an explanation and is he's wrong then give him a tight slap and dump him, yo.

18) If your mum gave you a thousand dollars, what would you do?
ALHAMDULLILAH.

19) Right now what are you thinking about?
About how suckish my life is now.

20) What is the thing you want to burn so much right now?
My babats and his pics.

21) What would you wish to have now?
A listening ear.

22) Do you wish to have someone by your side now?
Yeah.

23) Which country would you want to go to?
Many places in Europe(:

24) Would you ever wish to kiss someone else?
Dont know.

25) Your friends list; if you were to lose one friend, what would you do & who?
None. Friends are precious.

26) If there was a young baby at your doorstep, what would you do?
I'll hand the baby over to the orphanage as I'm too young to take care of one.

27) If your girlfriend/boyfriend got you pregnant, what would you do?
Astaghfirullah..

28) What's the last sweet thing your loved ones ever did to you?
Cheering me up by giving me ICE-CREAM.

29) What would you want to happen the next morning when you wake up?
July is over and my life changes to a better one.

30) What emotion are you feeling right now? Sad, confused and hurt.



ME WANNA WATCH SOUL EATER (!)



School was pretty okay.
I've been feeling empty and sad.
I can't tell anyone why.
It's too hard.
Oh wells.
I'm off.
Loves.
Aisyah.


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